In the mist of complexity,

in the myth of loss world,

lying on my bed,

thinking about something sad,

but all these,

deep down my heart,

I know,

are useless.

I hate the uselessness in myself,

but simply hate won't change anything.

Where is my determination?

I have none, then need to acquire it,

no matter how painful this process can be.

I need to articulate what I think, and be able to speak it out,

I need all these - just for my life!!!!!