To whom it may concern:

There are a few things that I regret at, one of them must be the inability to keep my feelings in secret. As all of my friends would surely know, that I am not a good actor at all, that is I cannot hide my feelings, once I have them, I would eventually have them out, and in most cases, have hurt quite a lot of people while I myself may not be aware of.

It is a always a joy to have a good friend like you, not just a good friend in you, but also a good companion to share with, and for this, I think, there is no doubt. But the doubt arises as to how I should get along with you. There are something that, even though I recognise the consequences of doing it, still being unable to change myself for the good, this is something that I just want to say sorry, not just to whom it may concern, but also to whom this would not be a concern after all.

Perhaps I should learn how to be a grown up through learning how things should work their ways out, and probably need to understand more about how to deal with different relationship, which in my humble opinion, most of my friends surpass my a long way ahead in this regard.

I am not sure whether I have got the patience, not just because of the matter of confidence or what, but because I am not sure whether I can survive through all the storms that I am facing altogether. This is life, perhaps some of my friends would say, and I admit, that I am still far too weak when it comes to facing different difficulities of life. Maybe sometimes I would act like an adult, but in my heart, I think the only word that can describe me to the full would be this one, childish.

I am not interested at all to find out how many of you would agree with this self-attached label as the impression for myself, but I am quite sure that, unless something really big, and perhaps, disastrous, happens, I would not be able to change this "basic" impression of myself.

I am quite determined to get away from this storm after all, yet I have really very little confidence as for the way I should go, since there are so many things that I am unsure about myself. Maybe...this is the point of time that I should call an end to this storm, but who knows?

There is nothing much to say, my mate, as for how I feel, since the only word that comes into my heart, after so many times, is.....sorry. I do treasure much about the relationship between us, especially the laughters that we have, but somehow...

there is something wrong with me.

All the best.